A New Life
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In my heart of hearts
lying on my bed
soaked with the pain
the water seems to rise above my ankles
changing the leaves is hard
but watching colors is fun
guilt of defeat sets
shrinking self interest wait
the water seems to rise above my knees
accomplished nothing
daydreams cloak reality's pain
such a beauty set free, alone
dying eyes silence my soul
dreaming of the next world
the water seems to rise above my waist
faces stand before me, their deed done
unleashed reality ten fold
still unconscious to my inevitable defeat
i stop to watch the leaves fall
the release, flight, and crash
never before has such grace fell upon me
the water seems to rise above my chest
awoke to the seemingly present state
disoriented rewired senses taint my vision green
disbelief of which reality to entrust
suddenly an act goes without recognition
stuck out at sea with no life preserver
heart of gold begins to bleed black
but so quick, fast, so confusing
the water seems to rise above my chin
now that I can taste what hates me
realization of what has come to be
no longer blinded by the bliss of the next
but crashing into the present of future
too late to place the stopper
looking down upon myself i realize my mistakes
left with nothing but the thoughts of the beautiful next
and how it destroyed my present
the water seems to rise above my head.

A.J. Dinardo 01/13/1999
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